Hellooo Minneapolis!

Since I relocated to the Twin Cities (no, not champaign-urbana) last week, I have had the pleasure of making a few new friends. There’s one special little boy who enjoys sporadically throwing himself onto my body, as if I were a city building wall and he were transformed into spiderman. I may be unemployed, but at least I’m gaining muscles and learning valuable parenting lessons (or how I probably shouldn’t have children anytime soon).

On a regular basis he (very creepily) whispers in my ear “i don’t like you,,, i love you… i don’t love you…i like you…muhahahaha.” At first it hurt my feelings a little, now it barely phases me. His little “tests” eerily resemble how my heart treats God and people…Wow…I’m thankful for His persistent and consistent love for His children.

Being here God has stripped away pretty much everything I previously had a tendency to put my value in (relationships, titles, job, responsibilities, etc). For once in my life I’m actually quite confident (in “feeling” and fact!) that God is w/me and loves me, but w/all else stripped away, my heart grieves to know,  am I truly w/Him (and His agenda for my life)? Do I wholeheartedly love Him?

I can hear my former pastor in my ear, “it’s not about all (100% love for God), but any (.00000001% love for God).” It all brings me back to the truth that my relationship w/the Father is much more dependent on Him than me. I thought I’d come up here and just start “doing” a lot of things (which I’m sure will happen eventually:), but God continues to tell me how He just wants to have my heart, not my service or anything else that I pharisee-ly believe can give me significance before Him.

Lord, thank you for this time of “loneliness” from people and pedigree. Bring me back to the heart of worship, not busyness.

In other news, I have another job interview monday. Yay. Prayers for that too please! Minus the mosquitoes, the Cities are a pretty cool place to live–beaches, a giant cherry on a spoon sculpture garden, Targets everywhere, lots of yummy (especially SE Asian) food, a cool new fellowship to attend, and much more! Let me know if you’d like to be my roommate! : )