Forcing myself to blog.

So I originally started blogging years ago when I went on a short term missions trip and to Korea to keep friends/family in the loop, but I just haven’t found a good enough purpose to keep it going regularly since I’ve been back.

Eventually my blogging became reduced to pages of narcissism and lameness. But here is my attempt to redeem! Friends perpetually seem to comment on my negativity and black hole thinking. You could call it an inability to see the “redeemed” side of things. Co-leading small group this year was great, because it pretty much forces you to get out of a hole of self-deprecation and cling to the cross for dear life.

But now that I don’t have that accountability, I’m forcing myself to use blog posts to redeem my negative spirals of thought. haha.  I used to find it semi-annoying to read Christian blog entries that had perpetually happy endings and lessons learned tied with a cute bow.  But what makes those entries so effective, so redeemed, is their claims to TRUTH. I need more truth.

It’s like the wonderful Psalm 42. By the end this guy still doesn’t really “feel” like praising God and his circumstances haven’t changed, YET he goes back to the truth/God’s character.

Psalm 42:11Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

So even if my readership is down to random strangers that accidently click on my blog, this summer I am making the conscious effort to redeem my anecdotes of pessimism and failure into the stories of God’s redemption in my life that they are meant to be.  (If you are reading, feel free to, nicely, keep me accountable .